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[16 Oct 2005|02:16pm] |
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.. rekindle the love you never had .. remember the memories you never had .. forget the one you could never forget .. =)
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[15 Oct 2005|11:07pm] |
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uhhhmmm .. so ye i came here cause i was thinking too much and needed to kind of get it out .. so wow .. where to start .. so much going through my mind like .. why do people do what they do to hurt other people meanwhile they dont want it done to themselves .. and why people use other people but hate it done unto them .. its just all so retarded .. like i hate seeing my best friend being led on by someone for so long .. knowing i cant do nethin to change that .. and i know she'll get hurt and i know ill be there for her .. but somehow i kow why she doesnt listen to me or anyone else .. cause i had that feeling before too .. you totally see the person in a different way than anyone else .. and i hate people daring others to do stuff that can hurt others around them .. seriously its so stupid .. and then people feeding you lies and blocking you just cause your nice to them .. like you know what .. maybe i should be a bitch at this rate cause no matter how nice i am i get scrwed .. if i can get scrwed either way why not just be mean? .. some guys are such jerks these days .. its all about sex and when they dont get that they ain't satisfied .. well you know what .. too bad cause im not like that and i wont be any time soon so you either like me for me or dont bother wasting your time trying .. i wont budge!. like it even bothers me that my sister wont talk to me about her life .. i try so hard to be liek a good sister and be there for her and i tell her stuff i hate telling people and even though she has a big mouth i try to tell her stuff about me that i cant tell people like confiding in her the way i hope she would me and she wont .. it makes me feel like she cant trust me or something.. and its bugging me too that i cant see some of my friend cause of a certain barrier .. its like i barely know them anymore .. i mean msn just doesnt cut it .. its just not the same .. i've gotten closer to people which is great .. i just hate losing people .. its soo hard .. now i have to face the fact that i have to show my dad my terrible physics mark .. i know im gonna be dead ... it doesnt help anthro is doing bad too .. and english cant be too good .. this is making me miserable .. this is the year i was gonna dedicate myself and do well and im trying so hard and its just never good enough .. its never fucking good enough .. im never good enough for anything .. thats my conclusion for today .. the end.
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[06 Oct 2005|08:54pm] |
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shitttt .. havent done this in a while .. just came here to bitch about how fucked up my life's been till the day i turned "16" ..
- well to start, i got like choked by my dad cause i was too "disorganized" and if i was a child he woulda slapped me .. always nice to have on your birthday
- failed my science test in physics .. definetly gonna get kicked outta the house for that
- ripped my pants for the second time and alot of people saw
- found out matt blocked me cause i was making him feel bad for ditching me SMART ONE GENIUS
- got andy talkign to me again for some reason .. mann im getting so lucky this week *rolls eyes*
- had a whole anthro project to do that too forever .. still tired from how much that took outta me
- oc got cancelled .. the one thing that makes any week good
- got into another fight with my mom cause she couldnt pick me up and has to go changing things
- stuck staying home this weekend
- ripped my bag so its falling apart now
- lost my pencil case
- got my dad up my ass about everything in the goddamn world
- got my grandma throwing my stuff everywhere and acting so stupid all the time .. cant she just leave me alone
- WHY CANT EVERYONE JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!
- ipod nanos sold out everywhere so i still didnt get my birthday present
- started getting pain in the ass migraines again
- got my cousin trying to be all nice to me when for the past 5 years she's been such a bitch and NOW suddenly she "cares" about me .. you know what i say to that .. FUCK YOU WHORE!
- i just want to run away .. please just let me get away for a while .. run as far as i possible can to get away from the world!
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[02 Jul 2005|10:15pm] |
If your are daring enough to let your eyes view these pictures, be careful. Some things may disturb older boys wanting to be woman. This here is a sad case of my cousin dressing up as a girl. Dont laugh too hard =D
( Be scared .. be VERY SCARED! )
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[01 Jul 2005|08:50pm] |
i couldnt resist putting the best line i've heard all day:
"ok well horny is such a ugly word i prefer passionate about the art of making love"
Dom.. you crack me up =)
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[02 Jul 2005|12:28am] |
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How do you cope when the one you love is with somebody else and there's nothing you could do about it =(
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| </3 david |
[14 Apr 2005|05:16pm] |
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=( this is to say...my relationship lasted a day with david...7 months of waiting and crushing and hoping shattered....all because of me...im so stupid!...i tried so hard not to be what he didnt want...i wasnt myself...i was horrible! ..i tried so hard not to be clingy..cause i heard so much he hated that...that i didnt make an attempt to show i REALLY wanted him...i felt so bad after but i tried not to show it...half the time i just wanted to like..go somewhere alone with him....talk or something...but no i had to ruin it.. WHY MUST EVERYTHING GO WRONG! .. you'd think that i'd be smart enough to make something GOOD happen..but nope..theres my luck..ruiner of all good things in life...i dont wanna tell him how i feel..i dont think he even likes me nemore...he'd never give me a second chance...he'd prolly just think i'd do it again...gosh!...i think he just wants to stay friends...uhhhh....oh well i think im just gonna have to live with that...it'll be hard to get over...but ill try...i just wanna tell him..just let him know that im sorry..that i didnt mean to do that.. that i really like him..that i have for a while...that i dont want anyone but him...but i know if i told him...i'd get crushed....its soo hard...to chose between taking a risk and not gettig what i want..or not taking a risk and not getting what i want...hmmmmm....i feel like telling him...i really do..but i know i'd come out wrong...and that would just dig me into a deeper hole...gosh i never thought i'd feel like this..ever...i feel ...like a girl!...with feelings! and emotions!...i honestly really care about him..that i feel bad for everything i did...its like i just wish i could turn back time...its soo friggin impossible..i somehow..miss him..or miss my chance with him...even though i see him everyday..its just not the same....i felt butterflies for the first time....i felt nervous around him...it was sooo gooodd...i could talk to him about anything..it was great ! i still can..but i dont think he's still willing to tell me everythig about him like he seems to tell other people...goshhh get a grip amanda...your losing it..totally! alright thats enough..im going to go play my guitar..get my mind off things..come back to earth..get back to reality!
w.love.
crazy girl =D
.aka. amanda <3
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[10 Apr 2005|07:38pm] |
A dream of Cory and I. As told to cory =D
we were walking on church street and they just finished filming degrassi and we looked all lost and adamo came up to us a d asked if we were okay and ur like ye ye im fine and u told him like we were waiting to go see kelly clarkson then he's liek hey im going to that too and ur like well u wanna go get some coffee or soemthign with us then: and he's like sure so u start walking and i was just there and then jake runs up and he's like hey ill keep you company then hes liek hi im jake and im like hi im amanda *blushes* so we all went to get liek coffees or w.e. and we talked forever and we got their numbers and they had ours and stuff omg it was nice lmao
Thats my story.
The end.
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| mmmmm long time no updates =) |
[07 Apr 2005|03:22pm] |
well lets start here. Andy and i broke up around a month ago. I came to the conclusion that i thought i liked justin but it was just in a friendly way. Then i realised i still felt something for david. So in a convo i just came out and told him and he said he felt the same. *woohoo for me* i've only liked him for HOW LONG! i really hope we go out or something.i bet we'll last a while. we are just sooooo close i think it'd be good. ill just have to wait and see =). So ye thats where it is now. Then there's phil. He's a friend of koehlers who has some major crush on me. we know what each other looks like but we've never met in person. Justin also has a crush on me but he likes 2 other girls so its not that big. Then this kid joe tells me on msn i make him horny and i have no clue who he was. Then i realised i met him last year on msn cause my friend jessica thought we'd be a good match..ye umm NO!. okay so i have my love life covered. OO and thers also the fact that people are trying to make david like ali pilli cause she likes him but that was unsuccessful. i had lunch with him today. it was funny. so random!. OO and on another note: ANTHONY TARABORELLI U ARE SO FUCKING DEAD YOU HAVE NO IDEA! first in the morning this kid twists my boob and it hurt. THEN he did it again at lunch!... then after school he slaps me on the back and he has his hand all chalky. WHAT A BITCH! honestly..im gonna kick him so hard his balls will bleed! SHOCKING NEWS: i found out my exboyfriend/good friend andy is adopted...i dont believe him but its true.im so shocked. it doesnt seem true...but but wow! im crying and laughing outta like shock and happiness..gosh im random..well newhoes im bouncing..je suis finito.l8er g8er.
LOVE , your AMORE
AMANDA =)
p.s. the grade 9..daniel i think is hot talked to me at mcdonalds randomly..and supposdly told joe about it ? then joe said he was askin who the girl was tha tlike him and if she was pretty..i guess he didnt realise i was that girl..well w.e. thats cool...
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| line of the day LOL |
[01 Mar 2005|06:20pm] |
Lima--10-- says:
wat did i tell u about talkin on msn while bein nude
» bobb-eh ﺕ Happy Self Injury Awareness Day =) says:
to have a webcam on LMAO
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| shooting star && beautiful girl [[ i love david .. he's my hero =) ]] |
[21 Feb 2005|07:53pm] |
im wishing apon a shooting star
that has long since disappeared
but its memory lives on in me
and gives me hope that one day
all my hopes and dreams will maybe,
just maybe,
become an incredible reality
by: David Dacosta
hello my girl of wisps and dreams,
so untouchable to me,
with a smile of great radiance
your innocent eyes seem to penetrate my soul
and make me want to change for the better
you clear up rainy skys and your touch feels like it could kill me
but at least i would die happy
and sleep forever with the memory of you
so smile like you mean it and ill wipe away your tears
and i promise forever to fight away your fears
you are my beautiful girl
by: david dacosta =)
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| craig's song .. its soo great =) |
[16 Feb 2005|04:47pm] |
I'm In Love (Should i stay or should i go)
Something 'bout the way you shine
When the lights go out
I wanna make you mine
Something 'bout the way it seems
You're always here..
In my dreams
When no ones there,
No i'm not scared
Because i'm in love....With you.
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| awww |
[16 Feb 2005|04:17pm] |
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i'm thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned
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| Mr. Invisible |
[25 Jan 2005|03:46pm] |
Mr. Invisible doesn't wear clothes
Ensuring he'll never be seen.
He'll sneak in a restaurant, and slip in the back
To sample their tasty cuisine.
Mr. Invisible likes to read books.
So he slides through the library doors.
He visits museums, he hangs out in parks,
He saunters through churches and stores.
He dances down alleyways, rambles down roads,
meanders in plazas and malls.
He bounds over bridges, he skips around squares,
he tiptoes through tunnels and halls.
Mr. Invisible strides up the street
quite certain he'll never be caught.
But Mr. Invisible ought to wear clothes,
because Mr. Invisible's not.
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